Coreyskeli

Dear Diary, Didn t make an..

Dear Diary,

Didn't make an entry last night........i was tired
and disheartened..........my 12 hours yesterday left a
bitter taste in my mouth.......also left me puzzled as to
how good a nurse i am anymore...........the system has it
where one has so many patients there is no way they can be
given personalized care.........more like you rush about
trying to fit in assessments, their daily care such as
meals and baths, and assure that they are getting the right
medecine at the right time..........well, it's too damn
much............and i honestly can't say there's been a
dramatic change in patient load..........i simply think
keli is tired and burnt out.........also really, really,
really good incentive to keep this office job with the
insurance company which i love...........also, yesterday
was Easter........i spoke to Jessi on the phone, but i
didn't get to see the kids..........even tho i seem to have
a short fuse with them these days, i miss them terribly
when they are gone............talking with Master before
bed helped a lil bit...........but i also miss Him
horribly............was informed last night He knew how
miserable i was, but His slave WILL Learn
patience........today i'm waiting for things to
unfold.........the satellite guy is on His way here
now........and then it's off to the doctor for injection
number two........i hope this one helps as much as the
first one did.........last night my knee hurt a lil bit,
but has been so much better lately.......then gotta rush by
the office and pick up checks for the weekend of
hell.........and off to the office........still haven't
heard from the Kia salesman, but figure to
today..........i'm pretty much resigned to the fact because
of my "colorful" credit they are gonna want a substanial
deposit on the sportage which keli doesn't have..........oh
well. life can't be wonderful always........will just hope
nothing happens to the nissan...........hell, i'm already
so much luckier than i was 6 mos ago..........i have
wonderful, beautiful, healthy kids..........and i have a
Man who loves me who isn't afraid to be the real Man i need
to control me.

keli