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The Chronicles of a Career Loser
2002-01-16 00:27:37 (UTC)

Random Ramblings

I did nothing today. At least yesterday, I got a couple of
resumes out. I was going to put out some more today, but I
woke up at the crack of noon and looked outside and saw the
ice and snow and I just had no ambition to go out. Little
bro left at nine and came back at five thirty so I could
easily have left after and got back before. It's not that
I don't want to work, I do. I just didn't feel like being
rejected again today. I know that I can't sit on my ass
and wait for the baby boomers to retire so that I can get a
job. I am thinking about legitimately applying for school
next September. I'll need a loan, but I don't think that
will be a problem. Local University X does take mature
students and I do qualify for an application, so I'll have
to do that in March. I won't say that will make everything
better, because it won't. Maybe it's a step in
legitimizing myself. I just want to get something,
anything. A decent paying job will even help right now. I
almost just wrote that I would even consider crawling back
to the last job that I had, but nothing would ever make me
go back. Did you ever see that Simpson's episode where
Homer gets a job in a bowling alley because he can just
barely afford everything, and then Marge gets pregnant with
Maggie and they make him crawl through a doggie door
entitled "Supplicants"? That is one thing that I won't
do. I've got a little bit of education, and I can sell
pretty much anything once I know a little bit about it, but
I wouldn't go back there and take the abuse again for
double the pay. .... well .... maybe double.

I got my first message on here today, and I am thankful to
the very nice person who left it. C.B., if you read this,
you were the highlight of my day. Thanks. I'm going to
consider your advice.

Other than that, nothing much to report. I swore alot in
my last entry, and I guess that was half because I had alot
built up from a month and a half of not writing. The other
half, well, it was at like 3am I think.

Good news, D, a friend of mine who moved to Australia over
two years ago is moving home on Saturday. I have to drive
to Toronto to get him, (almost 2 hours in good weather),
but it will be great to see him again. He and I have alot
in common emotionally. He's much more worldly than I am,
but we react the same to situations. The main difference
is he's very much an extrovert, and I'm a classic
introvert. But we seem to get along, and there's always
alot to talk about. The only thing that worries me is that
he's got three hockey bags full of stuff and a bike, and I
drive a Mazda MX-3. This should be interesting. S,
another friend, said he could loan someone his car while
he's at work, but I'm the only one who could drive it, and
after D being in Aus for 2 years I'm not throwing him back
onto the 401.

That's it for now. Maybe more later.




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