Monday, November 12, 2001
In my attempt to find eternal happiness, I have
discovered that one must be thoroughly fucked over in order
to be thoroughly happy. I hope to write these Fucks down
as I uncover them.
For instance, it is my firm belief that one has to
get fucked over in love in order to be truly happy in
love. Not to say that there are not people out there who
marry their high school sweethearts and are happy as can
be, but at some point they had to have been fucked over
somehow by someone in order to know what this happiness is
and to accept it as happiness.
The people who fuck over other are not necessarily
evil, as one might think they are. I thought Krista was
evil for a very long time. It was not until several months
had gone by (I might even go as far as to say after a year
or two had gone by) that I realized that it was not all her
fault, so in fact, she is not evil. She had never intended
to hurt me, nor did she intend to mess with my life and the
plans I had for it.
I believe I got fucked over by Krista. I had
invested all of my energy into this relationship and it
didn’t work out. It’s not that she didn’t work out; it
didn’t work out. I saw what happened, was miserable and
didn’t realize it, and because of these things, I am now
happier with Lindsay.
I wish I could explain more, but I have a paper to
Tomorrow: definition of fucked over.