lunasmoonbeam

A day in the life of me....
2002-01-14 15:25:51 (UTC)

This house is trashed

My god my house is a sty. I love order when it comes to my
home and it looks like a tornado hit my daughters room!
Along with the rest of my house! We were supposed to pack
yesterday the entire point of him comming over early and
surprise it didnt get done maybe 2 boxes and that was it.
What a freaking mess. I hate moving!!! Have I said that
yet? Although we did get the new couch over there yesterday
and it looks wonderful in the livingroom. He calls it my
couch I havent cleaned it yet. Its not dirty but because
came out of a friends house (it was brand new dammitt) its
dirty. Grrrrrrr. Sometimes I just wanna put my foot square
up his ass. I have no idea where to begin and he dosent
realize that packing with a 4 month old who is requiring a
ton of attention is harder then hell.
We've been talking alot about chicago. God I cant wait to
go there when pigdog gets his daughter for a week this
summer. A vacation I havent had one of those in so damn
long. I'm assuming I'll be a nervous wreck because she wont
be with me and will be with him that week. He thought he
would get unintterupted visitaion. IS he out of his
fucking head????? Good god If I wannna call and check on
my daughter I will and who in the hell does he think he is?
Up and abandons us dosent see her until she is 3 months old
then tries not only for joint custody lol but tries for
unninterrrupted visitation. ? What a fucking joke. I hate
him with every breath in me I hate that bastard. He never
brings her anything. Just shows up plays with her and
leaves. What a "good" dad. Grrrr I am keeping a journal of
his visits what he did and didnt bring ect. That will hold
up in court and if nothing else she'll be able to see it
when she gets older. I just wish the prick would simply
pay his support and drop out of her life. We dont need him
at all in our lives. Every single time Bill starts one of
his lectures on parenting when it pertains to pigdog I want
to fucking scream. Fuck it. Granted Bill was the one that
went thru this pregnancy with me but damn he had no idea
how much I really did struggle for everything. My bad for
keeping it all from him but jesus. HE hasnt a fucking clue
so excuse me if I wish my ex would die you have no idea
what hell I went through just to stay alive and healthy
and to keep a roof over my head when I was preggo...
geesh!!!!!




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