tomsgurl81

My life day by day
2002-01-14 14:10:58 (UTC)

8am oops thats 9am...

As much as I would like to be sleeping I am not sleeping. I
talked to bethany lastnight about what I should do about
these to boys in my life. She suggested...forgetting about
ronnie and just trying to be friends with chad. That maybe
chad needed someone he could he could be honest with and
just talk to. Unlike maybe he can't do with his metalhead
friends. She has a point but I really dont want to do this
and end up in some sorta of web that I can't fight my way
out of . Plus I dont want to lead him on. At first I really
liked chad then it just faded. Now there is nothing there.
I will be nice. I can't do anything but be nice. Gosh...why
me why me does this have to happen with. I want someone
else and there is no easier way to say it but I want
someone else. Not CHAD I want someone totally different. I
dont want to cause anyone pain I just want to aviod it all
and go back to being the distant dreamer I was when I first
started at SFH. Guess that is too much to ask huh?




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