jade627

Climbing and Plunging
2002-01-13 21:12:24 (UTC)

Belief in God

I believe in God. I know how strong His love for every one
of us is. About 5-6 years ago, my faith was probably at
the strongest it has ever been. Then through my
depression, I lost my way, because I prayed all the time
that God would take away the pain I felt. And after I got
lost, I only got worse. I tried to find other ways to fill
the void I had. Well it wasn't drinking. Besides, I lost
most of that anyways to the toilet. Pot seemed to make me
feel better for a little while, but--thank God--I had
friends that made me see that what I was doing was wrong.
So here I am. I miss the relationship I had with God. I
am trying to find it back. I think that getting back to
Him now I may have even more powerful faith than ever. I
am so thankful for Aaron. He is a reminder to me of how
AWESOME God is. He is the kind of guy I feel like I
wouldn't deserve. Then there is George, who is amazing me
with his beliefs. And of course, I love him, but I'm no
good for him either... I think... because even though when
he describes the kind of girl he wants, and I fit the
bill... I am sure he doesn't want me like that. So John.
well I don't know about his beliefs... I won't get too
involved if he doesn't believe. But who knows if he even
wants involvement with me anyways. I have no idea.
Will this madness ever end???




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