angryanymore

sleepless like a fever

... i'm listening to ani... and i feel all powerful...

i think i need to say this... so excuse all of the feelings
i'm hurting... but right now... my only concern is my own
feelings.

i don't need any of the men in my life... they just
exist... ... and perhaps this feeling will empower all of
the women in my life... ... love is love... but if it isn't
mutual or worn in... then its not certain or
sure... .... "i do it for the joy it brings... cause i am a
joyful girl."......................... don't get me
wrong... i cherish my frienships... travis and i... are
inseperable. he is one of my best friends... and he and my
other FRIENSHIPS are totally seperate from the statements i
have made and am about to make. i've been tied down once...
by uncertainties and presents and kisses and tears... ...
and i can't let those things tie me down again. no words
from any of them will ever get me down or up again. ... its
good to stay in the medium... it's great. ... and love is
great too... but i'm not interested in it at this point in
my life... i'm interested in figuring out all of the stuff
that coincides with who i am. ...

chip asked me what i was thinking... i think he was
expecting me to say something sweet and justified towards
him... but i told him the truth... "i'm thinking about
how... the sky looks like a bowl of cereal at nite,
kinda... ... a surreal bowl of lucky charms..." ... that
threw him off... ALWAYS BE ABLE TO THROW PEOPLE OFF BY
BEING YOURSELF... its so much fun..... and for the first
time since before kolby...i am totally happy... because im
ok... ...................................................
i'm oblivious to anyone that wants to screw me over. they
mean nothing... nothing nothing nothing.

sex is sex.... ... don't have it for the hell of it... it
gives preassumptions to the other person involved... just
wait until you can honestly say its more than sex...
because what it actually is... is kind of... a medical
procedure to release stress ... unless it means
something... unless youre in love.. and if your a teenage
girl... you're not ready for love... or medical
procedures... yoga and kick boxing are your best bet at
releasing stress..

i feel so good... i don't know ... but this seems like a
futile attempt at a proverb... and isn't that
hillarious!!! ... god...im on top of a cloud... and i love
it... ...

... i'm not angry anymore...

neeley.

... "just tell him next time the problems his and the anger
just comes."