emori3

CHRONICLES OF A CONFUSED CUTIE
2002-01-12 15:27:07 (UTC)

I wish my ex would get a life

This is my first time actually writing an entry into my
diary, so I am going to try my hardest to explain/express my
feelings in a short but concise way. If I sat here and wrote
about all that has happened with this ex of mine, you would
get bored and I would get mad all over again, so I will try
my best to avoid that. Just to give you a little background
info: I dated a complete jerk for almost 3 years, made the
mistake of sacrificing WAY TOO much for him, was unhappy,
and he did me so dirty in the end. I almost ran myself
down, completely down, trying to hold him up. It was
terrible. I also looked like a complete fool for him.
What's worst though, is that I am a very attractive, strong,
independent, determined, go-getter,
take-no-shit-from-anyone, sort of girl that never had a
problem dismissing any guy that didn't act right, but for
some odd reason I forgot who I was for the time that I was
with him. I let him run all over me-but everyone is entitled
to one REALLY bad relationship I guess...I can guarantee you
that it will never happen again! Well, to make a long story
short: I tried over and over to compromise with him, to find
a way to make things work with him, but he just does not
deserve me. One day I realized that, and now I have found a
way to move on. I am happy, single, and I vowed to never go
back to him (I've already made the mistake of going back and
things still didn't work out). Now that I've moved on, now
that I don't call him anymore, now that I've found someone
new that I'm interested in, he wants to call me and chase me
all over the place. It's starting to get ridiculous. Rarely
does a day go by that he hasn't called my house at least
twice, he's also just come to my house and I've hid or
avoided him. Doesn't a guy get the point after a while???
He's been calling my house like 5 weeks straight and he's
only reached me like twice. I really don't want to get ugly
with him, but I think that it is going to come to that. He's
really going to push me too far. He got me this bull shit
card with a present for Christmas and the card kept
emphasizing on "you need to be strong". I NEED TO BE
STRONG???? Pleeeease!!! That is why he is chasing after me
now...because I AM being strong, strong enough to never let
him near me again. He's got some nerve, what he meant by me
being strong is for me to be strong enough to wait around on
him to get his shit together...YEAH RIGHT! As I wrote in the
subject heading of this entry... I really wish my ex would
get a life and leave mine the hell alone!




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