Sodapop

Pardon me while I burst into Flames
2002-01-11 23:59:47 (UTC)

Thicky Thicky Thick girl....eew

UGH! I'm so pissed off! My mom had her appendix removed and
she's home now and stuff and im always happy to help her
and stuff but she uses this tone of voice with me
like...like I'm a servant, and regardless of how im related
to anyone, i will not take that tone. Finally I just burst
and said "Can you just say please? Just once! I'm happy to
do anything u want and shit, but could u just say please?
Just once?" And she was a bit startled, but i think she
understands, well she knows I understand. My fights with
her never last that long.
School was...tiring today. I had three free periods and i
was busy during all of them. I managed to please all of my
teachers, hand in a huge french porject, weasel my way into
making up 2 important papers, buying a new chem book,
calculator, Huck Finn for English and a few pens and shit,
and meet with my chem teacher, and go to peer mediating and
see josh (and not puke my guts out...which i think is the
greatest accomplishment of all), clean out my locker AND my
backpack,actually dress for dance, managed to eat
breakfast, ate a bag of that Okedoke cheese popcorn and had
a bottle of water, and..yeah i did a lot.Damn I'm tired. I
got home like 15 minutes ago and i havent eaten since the
popcorn at 12:30 and my breakfast at 7:30. AND i'm on a
diet. I happen to feel quite fat. I mean granted im not
obese but I'm what people call "thick". OK that's an
annoying name and dont want to be a thicky thicky thick
girl i want to be hot. I want to steal my dad's treadmill
and bring it here because runnin outside on the sidewalks
and stuff scares me. I'm weird. And my mother just LOVES
food, so...ick it doesnt help me. Seeing josh was SOOO
WEIRD!!!! Dammit, i wanted to upchuck. I felt like such
shit afterwards that when I left the room I screamed
and...felt refreshed. hah, im sure he heard. that rat
bastard. I hate him. i really am starting to resent him. He
broke my heart, that mother fucker. Fuck him.




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