Rei

Thoughts
2002-01-11 20:48:12 (UTC)

Cassy

Today I realized something. I fell in love all over again,
with a 25 year old woman named Cassy. She is everything
I've ever wanted and so much more. She wonders how I could
love her even though she's got a 5 year old and one on the
way, but I don't see the kids as a problem. I love kids.
Rebecca, her oldest, seems like such a nice child. Cassy
talks about her alot, and I understand why. At the moment,
Rebecca is all Cassy has, and Cassy will love her always.
Cassy is such a wonderful person. She's smart, funny,
great to be around, and she has this personality that I
immediatly fell in love with. I would give all I had to
spend my life with her. I could be a father to her
children, and anything else she wanted me to be. I would
give up everything for her. Cassy means the world to me
and I never want to lose what I have with her.

I know that at times, I haven't been the best person to
her, and I regret what I have done to her. Cassy is such a
sweet and wonderful person, God knows what I would have
done if I had lost her. I don't want to hurt her ever
again. I have pictured myself making love to her, being a
father, waking up next to her and loving her for all time.
Truthfully, I'm a bit scared. I want to be able to live up
to what she wants. I want her to know that there is some
male out there who isn't a dog, and could love her
forever. I'm just a bit afraid that I might screw up again
and end up losing the only thing I have going for me in my
life right now. Nothing else matters to me except for her
and the love I have for her. God help me, I want this
relationship to work so badly, I would give all I had, just
for a life with her.




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