LooLoo

depressed

depressed. DOn't know why but I am. Well, I probably do
know why. I just can't seem to get out of my slump. Plus,
some of my friewnds were fired over the past couple of
days, some of my friends changed positions(like a demote)
and my workload has increased dramatically. I wasn't
overrun before, but my group is REALLY overrun with the
things they want us to do now.
I know that quitting smoking is good, and I keep telling
myself all the benefits, but because it is an addiction, I
can't help[ feeling like I am missing something. Like there
is something I need RIGHT NOW. I haven't smoked am not
going to but want to vent because I want the desire to be
over and gone or at least diminished.
I have started running and watching what I eat which is
good, except for the fact that when I weighed this morn, I
am 3 lbs over my last weigh in. What's up w/that? I
shouldn't base my results on lbs because I'm lifting and
running and I am sure to build mass, but not that much and
at least at first the results should be different.
I did eat chinese last night. Hell, I probably ate 3 lbs of
that.
Blah blah blah. The most exciting thing I have planned for
the weekend is when my mother and I are going to the cat
show. *sigh* I am going to clean my house. My life is so
pitiful.