jane_doe

a little piece of me
2002-01-10 20:24:29 (UTC)

gone

brett left last night. i tried so hard to convince myself
that i was over him, that we could remain friends. it's
just not true. i love him so much. we both spent our last
hour together at the bus station..there was much crying
involved. letting him go was incredibly hard. i sat in my
car and bawled until the bus left, then i cried even more.
i was still crying when i got home. in fact, i cried
myself to sleep. woke up this morning, cried some more. i
guess he and i will have much to talk about. he should be
getting home in just a few hours. he's supposed to call me
once he gets there. i miss him so much already. there are
so many things i wish i would have told him while he was
here, and there are many things that i wish i could do over
or take back. this is aweful. i'm going to cry again. i
can't do that...my mom is right next to me, and she just
doesn't understand. sigh. i love brett so much, and i
will do anything to make this work with him. well, i have
to go. damn.

jane_doe