Kathleen

What's going on? good/bad
2002-01-09 23:04:28 (UTC)

Nothing about anything...

I know I have dance class and I have all these things to
do, but I don't want to do anything. I just want to
sit "blah". I guess that's what you call depression. Why am
I depressed? Most likely because I feel that achieving the
dance body is hopeless, that I'm never skinny enough, I
feel like there's no one out there, my so-called friends
are all distant, I just feel like yelling at everyone
(though there's nothing to yell about), I want to cry (but
I have no reason to other than feeling alone). I WANT TO
SCREAM AT EVERYONE. MY SISTER IS PESTERING ME TO GET OFF
THE COMPUTER RIGHT NOW. THIS IS THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME
SANE RIGHT NOW. Maybe it's considered cabin fever, I guess
feeling like I'm stuck here. I so cannot wait till I'm just
the taddist bit older when I can finally move out and start
a new life. Well I must be on my way. I'll put in another
entry later on tonight when I'm not soo peeved.




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