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APRIL 12TH ,2001

IT'S AN AWFULDAY TODAY RAINING SINCE THE CRACK OF DAWN AND
FEELING SO MISERABLE LAST NIGHT I THINK MY LOVER WAS UPSET
WITH ME AND ON TOP OF THAT HE WAS NOT FEELING WELL. WHICH
I UNDERSTAND BUT I HATE IT WHEN HE KIND OF GIVES ME THAT
FRIDGET LOOK YESTERDAY WAS OUR SEVENTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY SO
NATURALY I WANTED TO SPEND IT WITH HIM BUT THINGS NEVER GO
AS PLANNED HE HAD A MORNING MEETING WITH HIS BOSS SO I
DECIDED TO GO OUT ON MY OWN I FELT JUST BEEN ALONE ALTHOUGH
I WASNT I WAS WITH MY AUNT GETTING MY MIND OFF HIM WE SPENT
THE MORNING AT THE MALL WALKING TALKING AND OF COURSE
SHOPPING AND YES TALKING ABOUT HIM I DIDNT GET TO SEE HIM
DURING THE DAY NOT THAT HE DIDNT WANT TO BUT I WAS NOT
GOING TO DROP EVERYTHING JUST TO GO SEE HIM FOR TEN MINUTES
AND A QUICKIE SO HE CAN JUST LEAVE I DONT THINK SO I TRULY
LOVE THIS MAN EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THIS IS WRONG I DECIDED TO
GO SURPRISE HIM AT WORK AND MAYBE SPEND SOME NICE QUIET
ROMANTC MOMENT WITH HIM BUT TO MY SURPRISE NOTHING WHICH
GOT ME UPSET ACTUALLY NOW THAT I LOOK BACK IT WAS KIND OF
STUPID BUT THATS THE WAY I AM DATES AND OCCASIONS ARE VERY
IMPORTANT TO ME BUT HE DIDNT SEE THAT I LEFT SO MY FROM HIS
JOB CRYING BESIDES HIM FEELING SICK THERE WAS SOMETHING
ELSE WRONG I DONT KNOW BUT I HAD A GUT FEELING THERE WAS I
DONT LKE TO SEE HIM LIKE THAT AFTER I LEFT I TRIED NUMEROUS
TIME TO CALL BUT HE WOULNT ANSWER THAT KIND OF TOLD ME HE
WAS MAD WHICH I DONT BLAME I MISS HIM SOMETIMES I THINK I'M
UNCONSCIOUSLY TRYING TO GET HIM AWAY FROM ME BUT IN MYHEART
I DONT WANT THAT REALLY IM SO IN LOVE WITH HIM WELL ITS
9:00AM AND NOTHING WELL ILL DO WHAT HE WOULD DO JUST GIVE
IT TIME THATS ALL I HAVE TO DO JUST WAIT PATIENTLY