Faerie Onyx

i FouND My SouL

I was listening to Jimi Hendrix, the Grateful Dead, Led
Zeppelin, and Lynyrd Skynyrd, and when Jimi started singing
All Along the Watchtower, I couldn't think about anything
but music is an extension of the soul, and that song was
the extension of my soul. It completes me. When Sugar
Magnolia by the Grateful Dead started playing, I decided,
finally, on a baby name for a girl. Sunshine Daydream.
I'd thought about a baby name for a boy, and I'd previously
decided on Stephen Joshua. I don't know what it is, but
everything inside of me seems to be finally coming
together, and in return, everything around me is perfect
and good. I've tried in vain to describe my feelings to
people. I just can't seem to do it without it making no
sense at all, or making me sound like I'm seriously on a
lot of drugs. I'm just ecstatic because I feel so
complete. I've started drinking tea instead of coffee, not
eating meat, and eating less sugars. I meditate daily, and
I'm starting yoga classes. I just feel so completed. Now,
instead of problems seeming larger than me, I feel large,
and I feel powerful, like I can do anything. It's so
amazing. I hope that everyone gets to experience this
feeling someday. I'm at peace with myself, with my
parents, and with everyone who has ever wronged me. I
never thought I'd feel this unless I was about to die. I
don't think I'm quite there yet. I've just begun to live.
With everything going so well, how can I not be living?
Even with midterms coming up, I'll be ready, and I can
actually sleep without pills now. Everything is in perfect
harmony. I don't anger as quickly, and I don't even think
about killing myself anymore. What could be better than
this?

~Faerie