listen to my silences
2002-01-06 22:09:46 (UTC)

in a weird mood, not that it matters

i don't know what is wrong with me.
i should be in a really good mood.
i was.
i'm not now.
i don't know what happened.
not that it matters.

last night was lots of fun.
g and i had a really good talk on the way home from the
movie. he's in a good mood today, his mind isn't racing as
much now. a relief to him i know...i think he told me most
of what was going on...i hope so. if not g, you know where
to find me. and i'm here to listen. always.

brodie and i were supposed to go bowling last night but mom
wouldn't let me go. the movie was a better choice though,
since brian and amy went bowling too. bet that was fun.

heard from dre through email today. it was good. we
haven't really talked in awhile. she couldn't go with us
last night, so maybe another time.

k well i'm out.
maybe my mood will change back.
maybe not.
not that it matters.

final thought: i tried so hard and got so far, but in the end it
doesn't even matter; i had to fall to lose it all, and in the end it
doesn't even matter