IvyleagirlIn03

This Is Me
2002-01-06 05:02:11 (UTC)

uh-oh

im going to yorktown on saturday. gonna see matt. probably.
i hope so. but i dont hope so too. i dont want to see him
beacuse i dont want to have to deal with all of this stuff
thats inside me. if i ignore it long enough, wont it go
away? but if i see him. i will want to get back with him.
or i will run off crying. or something. something bad could
happen. the thing i want most is for us to be able to be
together. just when i'm in town even. oh god i miss him. i
flirt with other guys. i say other guys are hot. i try to
go on dates with other guys. but every night i come home
and its matt that is on my mind. argh frustrating. should i
talk to him about all of this? do i let him kno any of what
i'm feeling??? i dont know!

i got xachs guitar strap today. well, i ordered it. and i
went shopping. and i got some funny movies. so thats all
good. im sleepy ive got to go to bed.




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