Deep Blue Ocean
2002-01-05 06:13:51 (UTC)

as raw as i can be

For once in my life i'm gonna get to the bone of all that
i stand for. I refuse to lie to myself anymore. I am
worthless and i have no self esteem and i just keep on
trying to get higher and higher. i just dont wanna feel
this reality. I just know that I'm slipping again and i
just feel so damn weak this time, to weak to hold on to the
edge.i'm into drugs again and i am so damn lonely. why in a
world so full of people where i am always surrounded by
bodies and spirits, do i feel so alone....i'm
just living my life and i'm telling myself " i am as raw as
i can be...i am as raw as i can be....i am as raw...i am