abby c

goodnight, fuck-er

i didn't realize how many peopel actually read this besides
Ed... until i figured out how to get my messgaes that ppl
leave me (but then i forgot again, so it doens't matter
anymore)

i am so tired, my eyes hurt... me and ed used to try to
stay awake while were lying in bed just to stare into
eachothers eyes, too afraid to close them i guess... but we
always had to stop because we were so
tired.......................................................
............................................................
.........................................but now i think
i'd be able to keep them open for as long as i ahd to

thats has to do with alot fo trust you know, to be able to
close your eyes first.... i dono, complexity... its hard to
write down but i got it and you all ahve brains, you shoudl
get it too

hey you- and you and fucking you TOO
if you say to me that i'm only 14 ever, EVER aagin- ANY OF
YOU i will hunt you down and murder you myself... i feel old

didn't i say that...? i'm an old soul, leave me the fuck
alone i've lived through mroe shti than any other 14 year
old i know personally