Trixie Dust

Motivation...

'What’s the difference of never knowing at all?
When every step I take is always too small.
Maybe it’s just something I can’t admit but lately,
I feel like I don’t give a shit.

Motivation such an aggravation,
Accusations don’t know how to take them.
Inspiration’s getting hard to fake it.
Concentration’s never hard to brake it.
Situation never what you want it to be.

What’s the point of never making mistakes?
Self-indulgence is such a hard habit to brake.
It’s all just a waste of time in the end.
I don’t care so why should I even pretend.

Motivation such an aggravation,
Accusations don’t know how to take them.
Inspiration’s getting hard to fake it.
Concentration’s never hard to brake it.
Situation never what you want it.

Nothing’s new, everything’s the same.
It keeps on dragging me down, it’s getting kind of lame.
I’m falling further behind, there’s nothing to explain.
No matter what you say nothing ‘s gonna change my mind.

Can’t pretend on doubt until the end.
It seems like leaving friends has become
This years trend and though I can’t pretend.
It’s not the same but who’s to blame,
For all those stupid things I never said.

Motivation such an aggravation,
Accusations don’t know how to take them.
Inspiration’s getting hard to fake it.
Concentration’s never hard to brake it.
Situation never what you want it to be.' -Motivation, Sum
41, soon to be the new 'Fat Lip'...

But it has a good point. But im still scared. And things
are gunna calm down now. Not with daddy, but with the rest
of my life. Check this out:

'u know what ur dad loves u and i cant talk to u cuz he
told
me not to and i dont want to be grounded and im 14 and in 1
year i will have my permit and even if i was 70 i would
still need my daddy so im just sayin he loves u!!! and all
dads love their kids and all moms love their kids so dont
make ppls feel bad and stuff thats not kewl!!!...'

Thats from amandas diary, my step sister. I didnt say
anything at all to dad, is that what the problem is? She
also said something about moving to florida, and thats
scares me. But ashley went OFF on her, seriously chewed
her right out. Sorry to put it this way, but man, can my
sis be a bitch.

MAAAAAAAAN! Im all confuzzled again....

Matt, I love you so much angel, and I love you too mary and
will and jess and all.

-Laters-