Heatherbell

The Princess Diaries
2002-01-03 08:39:57 (UTC)

Why am I up at 3:22 in the morning?

Well folks, its 3ish in the morning. 3:22am to be exact.
and yes i'm up. why am i up you may ask. good freaking
question. one answer-my days and night are messed up thanks
to new years eve. another option-i'm addicted to this dumb
looking box in front of me. lol. cracks me up. so i've been
thinking a lot tonight. or this morning or whatever. what
is my purpose? yeah i know, great thing to be thinking
about at 3 in the morning but now is as good as time as
any. so i'm talking to my great friend whom i've
nicknamed "sweetheart" about my purpose. or calling if you
will. i'm beginning to think i'm supposed to get out there
on this planet and witness like there is no tomorrow. take
those words literally. "sweetheart" said i'm kind of like
paul. good way of putting it. so now on to other stuff. i
was beginning to think maybe i should censor what i put in
here. but then i was like nope, its me being me. i mean
most of you guys know i'm totally wack. but my family is
going to be reading it and some friends. but its ok. so now
i'm just being me. this is my time. my space. so i'm
beginning to worry about next thursday. the whole family
goes with my daddy to the hospital. i'm so proud of my
daddy. i love him so much and i'm so glad he made a good
decision in his life. i just hope it lasts. and how come
when it rains, it pours in my life? like everything is
going good then WHAM!! out of no where i get slammed with
so many problems. then like right now, i get over
the "hump" of bad problems, and then i get blessed like
crazy. isnt it an amazing world? ok so onto my first job as
being a better witness for Jesus. i just want to leave you
all with this thought. if you love me, and want to see me
again after i die/you die think about where you are going
to spend all of eternity. getting into heaven requires more
than just living a "good life". i want to see all of you in
heaven. how could i not? ok so thats the thought of the
night/morning. think about it. any questions, give me a
call/email. something. i love you and so does Jesus.
Peace out,
Heatherbell




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