Sarah Michelle

Sarah Michelle
2001-04-09 21:01:38 (UTC)

4-9-01...sucky as usual!

Well I heard from Wes that he will more than likely be
going to the mariens. God am I going to miss him. He will
be gone for 3 months for boot camp then back for 10 days
them he will be gone for 4 years...with the exception of
some holidays. I can't stop thinking about it. I mean I am
a freshman and he is a juinior now. So when he leaves he
will miss both of my Proms and 2 Cotillions AND gradutation
AND most of my college days. I really don't want him to go
but I don't want to be the one holding him back from the
one thing he wants to do.
In Algebra 1 today I started crying...talk about
EMBARRASING! I asked the teacher (who is a real dumbass) to
re-explain the lesson which did me no good and we ended up
playing this game where the people who get a question right
get to sit down and of course I totally embarrassed myself
and was the last one standing. Needless to say I never got
one question right. Today started off so good but all this
stuff that has been happening lately has started to get to
me. I keep telling myself to calm down and not worry about
it...but I just want to do good in math, be with Wes, raise
my 500 some dollars for driving and Spartanettes and worry
about anyone but myself. I want to change. I want to be a
better person..not bitch so much, and not be so self-
centered. So far...I haven't been too successful. I miss
the way things used to be...you know...like when you were a
little kid and all that was important was matching your
socks. Those were the good days. Alway's running around
barefoot and playing in the dirt. I remmember being best
friends with Cara Swain and playing Barbies at the
babysitter untill our mom's had to pry us apart to take us
home...hahaha...kicking and screaming...what fun! We were
so close then...but then...things changed and
now...hu..everything is diffrent.




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