Ambrose

A final catch up Dec31/01

Well were to begin. It has been some time since have
writen anything down and at least now I have the place and
time to do so which makes me happy.

Well the stuff withy Aneke never worked out she is now
living with Josh another friend (or associate I guess) and
is very happy with him from what I can tell and since they
are paying on a house means it is pretty much writen in
cement.

I am now living in a batcholor appartment (how fitting)
with an old friend Neil. Everything was cool for the
longest time because I have largesolid french doors
dividing our 2 halves of the house and all went well till
recently.

He is now dating this chick named Pam...who is 8years
younger than he is...now that is not the problem the
problem is I have seen her circle our social group and
leech off them all for food and home, and now she is here.

She spends more time here than I do using my stuff and
what not and not even paying a cent for rent.... and Neil
doesn't seem to care in the least about how I feel about
this and all he is looking out for is himself. It seems
as if he almost is trying to be my friend even more so
than before cause I am displeased with him. I ripped into
him last night about it and I still may rip even further
cause I am getting sick of his games.... And to make
things even worse I have allowed anyother friend Don to
sleep on my couch for the month of december cause he got
kicked out of his sisters house due to a family
arguement, and I assumed it would only be a temporary
thing but it seems he is taken root.

I am too much of a sucker and am afraid to say to much to
them about how I want personal space.... and all this
angst is building inside of me and I am unsure of how to
deal with it and I know that unless I find a way to deal
with these issues I am going to blow and I am afraid I
will hurt someone. It is bad cause I am too ashamed to
even rent a porno or try and start a relationship or even
entertain company cause I am ambarased of the state of my
home due to the 2 slobish roomates.