still single

sick of all the sh*t
2001-12-31 06:29:44 (UTC)

Home Sweet Home

Well I'm going crazy here...I actuallystarted pulling weeds
in the backyard at 3 o'clock this morning since I couldn't
sleep...My sleep schedule is all fucked up...and I'm
supposed to start my new job on Wednesday...dreading
that..good news..not in excruciating pain anymore and
tomorrow I get to take a bath.woo hoo!!!!I have to bathe in
the morning with mineral oil to get off the bandages and
then take off and clean the compression garment soaked with
blood and probably piss..lovely...my roommate says he can't
wait for me to shower..poor guy.I feel the same way though.
well I finally heard from Dan my man from Japan...He
emailed me yesterday finally! I wrote back twice told him
about wht's been going on(he already knew about the surgery)
He is such a cutie. Well I'm still swollen and I want to go
out tomorrow for new years!!!Damn!I actually am worried
about takin off the garments in the morning so Silvana
going to help me ..I'm a big wuss and don't want to look to
closely under the bandaes/garment...I am one giant bruise
and I'm afraid they fucked up or something...my arm and
stomach seems lumpy right now kind of and they said it's
normal and it takes a few weeks but I can't help but worry
a little it will stay like that...that , and the fact that
I have testicles where my pussy used to be it's so damn
swollen.Can't believe I had Silvana take pictures with my
digital cam...still haven't smoked!!!no more pot or
cigarettes for me...except maybe on RARE occasions...my
roommate brought a girl home to fuck this afternoon and she
went outside to smoke and although it was tempting I just
sat and watched TV and didn't bum a smoke off of her.BIG
breakthrough




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