Christy

SuperWoman
2001-12-30 10:20:15 (UTC)

I fucking hate life

Oh my God I wish I could fall of the fucking face of the
earth right now. Brad dumped me and I was so heartbroken.
What is making it worse was that I lost my virginity to
him, and he acts like it meant nothing to him at all. It
really hurt. Justene is over tonight...and I don't want to
talk to her. I don't because I want to die so bad. I just
want to up and fucking kill myself...but she won't let me.
I don't understand how she can waste her life trying to
save me, spending time with me, when I am a fucking no one.
I will never amount to anything and I never have ever
amounted to anything. I am going to be a drop out and if I
do grad...it will be bottom of the class. I sit and fucking
drink till I don't remember anything, I have to rely on a
fucking white pill at 8:00am every morning to keep me
sane...and I don't understand why she waste's her time on
me. I don't understand anyone anymore. I just want to curl
in a ball and become invisible. Where no one sees me and
then I don't have to worry about me or anyone else. I don't
really worry anyway, but then I would have a reason not to
care or worry




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