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ViCtiM oF ReaLiTY
2001-12-29 18:51:47 (UTC)

FuckIn A, ChRis....

WOah, yesterday was a wEIrd day. I was just chillen at
home watchin Dazed & Confused when Whitney and her neighbor
friend Sarah came over and told me to get dressed and go
hang-out wit them. so i told em to come back in an hour,
which they did, so i could take a shower and get ready.

So we hung out and then we went to the park
over by my house and started callen people on my phone(i
havent really gotten to try it out yet) and i made Whit
call Jacob, her X. she acted all nice to him and then he
said he had to go so she got all pissed. i told her to call
him back and SPEAK HER MIND, and she did!!!! (she's is my
hero now.... i wish i could be like that to Chris). She was
like "what the fucks ur problem?!?! why do u hate me? i
said i was srry, so what else do u want me to do?".... and
so forth. so ya, she's got balls. and then when she hung up
she told me to call Chris but i didnt know what i would
say. so i finally got up enough courage and called him!(yay
4 me) and he sounded all different at first and i guess i
did too, but when i told him who i was he was like "Oh
Hey!!!!!" like in this cute really excited voice (i think
he got a boner or somethin) and so i was just talkin to him
about nothin and then outa nowhere hes like " Do u wanna go
to the movies cuz i can get like 5 people in for free"(he
works at Harkins).


***So later on we went , me
whit,chris, and sarah and we saw Not Another Teen Movie(
stupid funny) and like the WHOLE freakin time i was sitten
there next to Chris i just wanted to kiss him so bad. i
have the feeling he felt the same way too. i just wanted to
kiss him and hold him and make sweet passionate love right
there in the theater!! that would be kinda cool but
weird.... so N E Ways, it was weird hanging out with him
cuz i didnt think i would see him again till school starts
again.
Oh ya, and stupid Whit kept saying the
whole time that she needed a boyfriend (that phone call
with Jacob must have really gone to her head) and she kept
saying it around Chris.... i dont think so!! that boys MINE
and NO ONE else can have him!! and she kept talking about
freakin Eric too, which brought back memories,.. so sad....
but i think she wants his nuts or somethin. La la la.....


im listening to 'My December' by Linkin Park (such
a sad sad song!) i dont really like them , but i like this
song cuz its sad and sometimes i get really sad (i know im
a total loser)

" And i'll, give it all away"
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
Just to have someone to come home to
This is my December......

I love you Chris