Life of a rockstar....NOT!
2001-12-29 04:38:53 (UTC)

Hey all! Tonight was actually..

Hey all! Tonight was actually really fun! I still kinda
wish I coulda gone to Katie's tho! I was talkin to Gina
while she's there, and now I'm talkin to Kate and they're
all like we wish you were here we miss you so much! It
makes me feel so good cuz tonight at the movies things just
seemed kinda different. I don't know if they will ever be
the same again cuz of our little fight thing. But hopefully
they will cuz i love those gals! Now I'm just listening to
the music from ICTC(a church retreat I went to a few months
ago), and just reminiscing about the whole thing. I really
miss it so much. I mean everyone got along, and nothing
mattered. But Liz told me something very wise~ You aren't
supposed to want to go back, you're supposed to remember
what it was like and make your world that way. Which
actually is quite true and good advice.

But ya, thats a whole nother story. Liz really makes me so
mad sometimes. Well, rephrase that, not mad, just jealous
and upset. Because I mean, like seriously all the guys like
her, and shes smart, and OMGOSH she is beautiful. I can't
stand it because no matter what I do I will never be as
good as her. I mean, I'm smart, but that's all I have. I'm
almost pretty, but not really anymore. Cuz now I'm frickin
fat. It's cuz I stopped going to the gym, as soon as I can
drive, I will be back there 24/7 and be my old self again.
Hopefully. I guess I will go for now, before I depress
myself again.