jane_doe

19.5 hours and counting

panic has set in. true panic. i'm terrified. i'm
shaking, and nauseous. i can't think straight. my chest
hurts. he'll be here in less than 24 hours. what am i
gonna do????? oh dear god, i'm such a mess. i really want
him to come, but i don't at the same time. this is so not
good. fuck. shit. damn. too late to turn things around
now. i guess it would help if i at least knew what i
wanted. oh well. i really do love him, so that is going
to make everything ok right?? right?? fuck. dad's home.
bye.

jane_doe