the writing of kuypers
2001-04-09 13:42:22 (UTC)

Not For Me Yet

Not For Me Yet

November 15, 1998

There are so many things I must remember
things about you

do I remember things a certain way
do I see them the way everyone does

I come fully equipped with certain ideas, hopes, fears

You started to rub my back today
before a long drive home
I said it out loud
I didn't want this to end
I was enjoying this too much

I wanted you near me
how should ask for that
I didn't want to tell you to not go

and nothing was resolved
not for me yet

you'll always look at life differently now
this I know
but I can hope things are different
I can