princess_in_ec

Christmas Eve

Well, I didn't get a chance to write yesterday because I
was busy most of the day. I went to church with Jerry and
I actually enjoyed myself, and I would like to go back
again next week. He keeps thinking that I am only going
with him because he wanted me to, but that is not it. I
wanted to go for myself, and the preacher actually
mentioned something that struck me. Something about the
God Hole. I think that is what I have, a God Hole. A hole
in my heart nothing else can fill but God. I am going to
work on this. Well, after church, we went and got
something to eat and then I came home and cleaned the
house. Then I went and watched football, GO BEARS :D! Of
course, they beat Washington. After football, he dropped
me off and I chilled at home for a little bit, and then I
went over to Danny's house. We watched this awesome movie,
called The Gift. Then we went to Kelly's, and picked up
her and Andy. We all came back to my house and they were
drinking and everyone was chilling and having a good time.
Well, all of a sudden I felt like I had to go to the
bathroom really bad, and when I went downstairs, I had
blood all over my panties, jeans, and legs. :O OMG it
scared me, and then the pain came. We are talking intense
pain here. So I screamed up at my buds and woke my mom up
and we all trucked to the hospital. I called Jerry and he
came and sat with me the whole time. God, I love him so
much. Turns out I have a ruptured blood vessel on my
cervix, which is nothing serious now, but I am supposed to
take it easy for a week or so. Well, Christmas is
tomorrow, and Jerry was supposed to spend the night
tonight, but now he wants to be alone. He is depressed he
can't be with his family. I understand, but I would still
like him to NOT be alone but that is what he wants. He
will come over tomorrow and stuff. Well, I am kinda
sitting here in my towel so I better go get dressed. Lataz