bluff before i

hmm...

today is the last day of school before christmas break...on
these days you're supposed to be with your friends...my
best friend kinda left me...her boyfriend wanted her to go
with him so she did...where was i??...making a phone
call...lately i'm begining to get the feeling i'm starting
to lose my friend...she's really the only really good
friend that i have left...i don't want that to happen...and
i get the feeling that her new boyfriend doesn't like me
much...i can't say anything bad about him besides that
though because she's happy with him because she makes her
happy and she likes him a lot...i guess that's good in a
way but i miss her...i don't get to talk to her and in one
of her recent diary entries she kinda agrees with what i'm
saying...but it hasn't changed...we're still not talking
all that much...but it's not that we don't want to...it's
because we never get the chance to...we walked home
together one day and we talked...then i noticed that i was
talking way too much and she hardly said a word...what was
on her mind??....i asked her to talk to me and she told me
that she had nothing on her mind...

well...i feel kinda bad about my boyfriends mum...she's not
feeling well and i think that i have her running around too
much...i feel in a way that she's being taken advantage
of...i really hope that that's not the deal...

i'm really tired of writing now...i'm gonna go do something
to stay busy...i'm still at school anyway...

i'm listening to music that my friend jonathan has to show
me...harvey danger...

reminds me...must do something nice for bryce...

hmm...