angryanymore

angryanymore
2001-12-20 05:05:38 (UTC)

deck the halls... its you again... its you.

well... its been a while since i've updated you... so allow
me to do so.

... chip has been over a whole bunch... last weekend he
stayed until like one... and helped me with some 9 weeks
tests... and last nite he came over and helped me move
furniture upstairs downstairs around oy yoy yoy... ... he's
so nice... but... man... i can't find anything that would
make me think he's any different... sure he's nice... but
there aren't any real sparks.. atleast not on my end of the
deal...and i don't know why.

... yes yes... i still haven't gotten past the gabe thing.
maybe those kisses are what are holding me back from moving
forward. i don't know. i can't get them off of my mind...
and they never even meant anything... atleast not from
him.. to me... of course...

those are some really big reasons... why i just want to
date for now... ... i don't want to lead anyone into any
false presumptions...
... as we all know... i have a habit of doing that... and
maybe i still am...

chip is so nice... its sticky... he does everything for
me... and sometimes i feel bad for it... i mean... what
have i done for him that is making him so... chivalrous?
(probably mispelled that)... ... and am i wrong for making
him... hang around... if there are no guarantees of a real
relationship? ... i mean... its not like i haven't told him
how i felt. i was very upfront about it... still am... but
he's still hanging around... ... who knows what will
happen...

jordan (little bro) has been getting on my last fucking
nerve... i think i must be anal retentive... because i went
insane when i walked into his room this morning... god...
he makes me sick... you can't see the floor... it smells
bad... and that's gross.. also..i scrubbed the tiles in the
bathroom... then he spilled karma's milk all over it... and
cat food too!... god... i freaked the fuck out... why does
he have to be so fucking gross?

exams are over... i messed up on some of them... im tired
of school.. god...

crystal and brad came home... i saw them before i opened
presents at the lipes ... and crytlo asked me if i wanted
to go to the south of france with her this summer... I
DO! ... so much... but i haven't asked mom yet.. maybe i
should wait until my birthday............. france... ...
god... that would be amazing.

i might have to leave for mamaw's tomorrow... and i won't
be home until christmas... so... i'll tell you what all
happens when i get back.

oy yoy yoy

neeley.