jinny1004

sighz...i got it bad...

today wuz...um...sorta depressing...welpz anywayz~ i wuz
feelin okay until i found out sum shtuffz that made me so
sad. i knew dat tha truth was gonna hit me sooner or
lata...buh when it actually did, i felt crushed. i can't
stop thinkin bout him...buh i kno he neva thinkz bout me in
that way...we havent talked in sooo long, and i miss him so
muchiez...buh i dunno wat to say. why would he pretend to
be nyce to me and put up a front lyke dat? wuz that how he
really felt bout me? or wuz he jus desperate after his
break up with his last gf? or wuz he jus bein nyce?...i ask
myself deze things all tha tyme. i think bout him at least
twice a day...n that killz me cuz i kno i hafta move on,
buh it's so hard. i want him so bad...i want him to be mine
so bad...buh i kno that can neva happen...and that jus
tears me up inside...every time. oppa...i kno i can't have
u...and that jus really sux...i jus hope one day...u'll
care enuf to call me, jus to say hi, or tell me that u miss
me...i hope one day u'll realize how much i lyke u...even
if those feelingz arent mutual...trust...*one luv*
...i got it bad...