csadler

who loves ya baby?

i had an *awful* day at work...i'm pretty sure i'm manic
depressive (you know high his and low lows) and anyways,
today was a low low. it should've been a good day...it
was 'team 2' day...i guess my team (team 2) was the best
team of the year or something so we all got a bunch of free
shit, compaq pens, compaq t-shirt, a meal, etc. very
nice. but i just felt like dirt. and i got to wondering,
would anyone miss me if i wasn't aruond? i'm sure people
would, but really...did anyone visit me in the hospital or
anything. so i thought about just not going to work (woo-
hoo!) and not turning on the messenger and not answering
the phone and seeing who would try to contact me. but i
can't afford to miss work so i can't do that, but the idea
is intriguing :) vicki probably would, i was talking to
her sister last night and she told me that vicki called up
the hospital to see if i was alright. that meant a lot to
me...even though i'd like to get with her, but probably
never will, she is truly a good friend. amanda and julie
are having a rum and eggnog thing on friday which is good
because we had originally planned on going out, but
i'vegotta get up *early* the next day so this is better.
i've had this fucking "against all odds" song by phil
collins in my head all day (i even downloaded
it...saddest...song...ever) so by default it's the song of
the night :) also, i like the idea of having a beer when i
come home from work...i may even have 2 :)

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TAKE A LOOK AT ME NOW - Phil Collins
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How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave
without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain and even shared
the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, oh there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds and that's
what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory
of your face
Now take a look at me now, cos there's just an empty space

But to wait for you, is all I can do and that's what I've
got to face
Take a good look at me now, cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It's the chance I've gotta take

Take a look at me now