Someone

My problems.

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2001-12-19 02:03:10 (UTC)

It's been awhile

I am very confused right now. Why do people ask for
things and then expect you to sugar coat it and lie to
you? If you ask someone for something then you
should accept what they say. Not be pissed at them for
telling you the truth.

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Screw that topic I am sick of it. So its been like forever
since I actually wrote here.. sorry Chrissy and Sarah...
this I guess is for you.. Since you told me to write in it..

Umm where do I start... April and I are really good
freinds now. Thats a good thing, I think. But everyone is
tellin me that I'm changing because I hang out around
her. I don't get it. Just because I hang out with a girl
and play hack means I'm different? Just because I
don't act the way I used to... I think most of you know the
way i used to act. I used to do everything for someone.
I mean everything. And now that I don't I'm called an
ass. I have no idea what to write. My life is goin good
and you know why? Because I'm being who I wanna be,
not who anyone else wants me to be. I'm doing things I
want to do and I try to live every day to the absolute
fullest. I was sick and tired of living up to what people
wanted me to be or bowing to one specific person.
Now that I've actually realized what life is supposed to
be I'm actually living it better.

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I don't know why but I wanna get back to the subject
about before. Why do friends not understand me? I
don't want my friends to get hurt in the end. Why do they
expect you to tell them everything is gonna be alright or
lie to them? I think thats what a real friend is...
someone thats not gonna lie to ur face and tell you
everything that is not true. I think I'm a real friend, a real
good friend. Why? Because I try to tell the truth and not
hide behind a mask of lies. I try to care about them
enough to tell them exactly whats happening or whats
going to happen not what they want to hear. What do
you want me to say? So and so is single and he wants
you bad? No. cause that would be a total and
complete lie and in the end someone, if not both of us,
would feel like complete shit. yes, shit. Friends that lie
to you and just try to make you feel good are good for
that particular moment but in the end your gonna feel
even worse because they lied to you.

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So anyways, I've realized that you have to be true to
yourself first. Be who you are. Even if your confused,
lost, etc... anything, live your life to the fulliest. make
each day as though it were your last because you have
no idea what the tide is gonna bring in.

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Always there when you call [Buckshots, hah], always on
time
Gave you my....baby be mine
Always there when you call, always on time
Gave you my....baby

Baby, I'm not always there when you call, but I'm always
on time
And I gave you my all, now baby be mine
I'm not always there when you call, but I'm always on
time
And I gave you my all, now baby be mine

C'mon and get a piece of this late-night lover
You know, the one that swing dick like no other (shit)
I know, I got a lot of things I need to explain
But baby you know the name and love is about pain
So, stop the complaints and drop the order restraints
Our sex life's a game so bat me down in the paint
'Cause I can't wait no more
'Cause it's about a quarter-past three and shorty's eyein
me
I got the Bentley valeted
And I'm just outside of Jersey, past the Palisades
And I love to see that ass in boots and shades
Hold down on the bed while I'm yankin your braids
Thug style, you never thought I'd make you smile
While I'm smackin your ass and fuckin you all wild
[With Ashanti] But we share somethin so rare, but who
cares, you care

Girl, get a grip, c'mon, pull it together
It's only a sunshower, we been through worse weather
Like the stormy nights you wrote a "Dear Ja" letter
And took my Benz and keyed and cut the leather
Bitch, you know better, we live M-O-B
Money Over Bitches, Murder, I-N-C

I got two or three hoes for every V
And I keep 'em drugged up off that ecstasy
I'm a playground legend like Kirk with Pee-wee
Name a nigga in the league got more game than me
I play hard, there's so many women I fathered
Meet 'em with scars and send 'em home hot and
bothered
Truth or dare, this life ain't apparantly fair
And a love with no glare is a crystal stare
But we share [with Ashanti] somethin so rare, but who
cares, you care

Oh I'm, feelin like ya livin a, double life
'Cause you don't be comin home, sometimes
Baby, but you're always, on time, checkin for one time
You and I, got a special bond together
We go back like bombers boo, in the coldest weather
And when I play you play the same way you freak me
baby I fuck you crazy
Then I'm gone
Baby don't really want me to get up and leave off that
easy
She'll be wakin up wet for sheezy
Remind these bitches to mind they business
Believe me, this pimp game is very religious
And I'm built like the Don Bishop
Gon' keep this money-green Benz and my hoes as my
witness
The life we share is a thug affair
But who cares, you care

Always there when you call, always on time
Gave you my....baby be mine
Always there when you call, always on time
Gave you my....baby be mine

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-Someone

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