Ataris11701

In Spite Of The World...

alright... it's monday, and how I hate mondays... I just
got back from drivers ed a while back, haha poor Aaron, it
was his first time driving cause he needed glasses to drive
but he thought someone stole them but they turned up later,
so it's all ok now. Lately all I can think about is Nikki
still, I just can't get over her and I really doubt I will
any time soon, I feel so pathetic... she's been calling me
lately though so thats cool, but today she like totally
blew me off for all her drama friends... not just me, but
she blew all her friends off. I miss the old Nikki, the
one who spent time with me, even when we wern't going out,
and the one who used to make me feel special, and was happy
all the time, with me and all her friends... I DON'T
FUCKING GET IT! AHHHH! son of a bitch.... there is so much
more I want to tell her dammit, and I feel like I can't
anymore, like I missed my chance... I don't want her to
think I want her back so bad, that kind of annoys girls,
especially if they don't like the guy, and it seems like
she doesn't have any feelings for me anymore. In fact,
it's kinda hard to believe she EVER had feelings for me
now... God I miss her... more than anything... I wish she
could just know how I really feel... where did I go wrong?
DID I go wrong? If I did I don't know where, maybe I'm too
nice for her and there wasn't enough drama in her life...
maybe she liked Robert or Mike, (Robert has this wierd
feeling that she likes Mike, but I can kinda see it too),
and she was just confused about her feelings but she didn't
want to hurt me... or maybe she just had one of those big
crushes on me and just led me to believe like she was in
love with me... maybe it was just A One Time Thing...