SethW

Julie

Julie. I miss her so much. I haven't seen her in such a
long time that it hurts.

I guess I should explain, seeing as this is the first entry:

In the beginning of the school year I was dating an
amazing girl named Julie St. Clair (for the second time)
and everything was almost perfect. Then I was over at her
house once, and I had brought my backpack with me. Then we
went out.

While we were out Julie's parents were snooping around
her room. They didn't know that the backpack was mine so
they were looking through it. Stupid me I had weed in
there.

Needless to say, her parents flipped thier lid. I told
them that the backpack was mine, but they thought that I
was just trying to protect her or something insane like
that. They said that no good Catholic girl should be doing
drugs (or dating someone who does, which ever way it goes)
and they forced her to move back to Quebec (where she comes
from). Now she lives in a strict Catholic boaring school
in Quebec. I haven't been able to see her or speak to her
since.

I tried once. I woke up at 3 am, took a day off school and
drove to Quebec. It took me 8 hours. I stayed there for 8
more hours stainding in the rain, thinking that they'd
finally let me in to see her or let her out. They didn't.

I love her so much.

Everyone says that I should give up. That I should just
move on with my life. They act like she's dead. She
isn't... she just isn't here. My friend Kate's trying to
set me up with one of her friends. She doesn't seem to
understand that I don't want to. She would feel the same
way as I do if I took her boyfriend Scott away from her.
She wouldn't want to move on.

How can I move on and act like the best thing in my entire
life never happened?

-- Seth