Jess

My Life
2001-12-17 03:18:33 (UTC)

why?

I had such a great time at the concert the other night! I
met some new people and saw some great bands, but I
couldn't help but think about Matt most of the time. He is
always on my mind and he just won't go away. I don't
really understand how he can kiss me and not have it mean
anything, especially when there is another person
involved. It's like he doesn't even care about what Marcia
would think. I wish he would just make a definite choice.
The other day I saw his profile. It said "I love you
Marcia". He never did that for me and it really hurt to
see it. It's like I never even existed. I feel like I
should tell Marcia about what has been happening just to be
fair to her, but I don't want to lose Matt for good. I
know he would be very angry with me. Some days I'm in the
greatest of moods and think everything will be great, other
days I feel like I will be alone for the rest of my life.
I see people with their kids and I can't help but wish I
had someone to care for.




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