bluff before i

oh well...

at school again...grr!!

i went to the christmas program...it was really cute
listening to the kids scream at the top of their lungs to
be heard over the others...they sang a lot of christmas
songs and it was really funny to watch...my sister is so
cute...i wonder if i was ever as cute as her...i know for a
fact that i was shy...hmm

there isn't much to talk about yet...i tried to help out a
guy with his paper in my english class today but he kept
getting attached to the movie we were watching..."the sand
lot"...that's such a cool movie...

i hope i get the chance to talk to my friend online
again...i think that he sounded a little dissapointed in
me...i hope not...i let him read these diarys and he asked
me why i seem so gloomy all the time...am i gloomy??...

i'm gonna see my boyfriend today after school...we'll
sleep...tired...hadn't much sleep latly with the senior
project and all...i feel like i'm a bad friend to him...i
always do things the wrong way...i'm trying to be myself
but i guess that's not good enough...i miss...umm

we're supposed to go to his winter formal this
sunday...sucky i have to go to school the next day. he
doesn't because his school is off on break already after
today...i was really excited to go but now i'm a little
nervous...i have no clue as to why i am nervous...

oh well...