dragon_amor

Kami
2001-12-14 10:49:38 (UTC)

torn

I get some replies to my diary - some that matter a lot to
me - so for everyone please be advised that this is a read
at your own risk diary. I NEED this to get what I feel
out - and I do edit a bit everytime I think of who is
reading this but I try to stay pure nonetheless. I'm not
trying to make anyone feel awkward or influenced by this
diary - but if you want to know how I really feel without
putting yourself in the position of asking me then read
it. Read it realizing that my feelings are evolving and in
constant change of intensity and gravity toward topics that
what you read is a snapshot of a particular instance.

I also tend to only write about the stuff I have no other
means of getting out. Things I usually can't talk about.
If I always write about how beautiful you are to me, and
all the great ways you influence my life, or dreams, or
other things like that - it doesn't mean that my feelings
expressed or implied are the only ones I have or are
capable of. I just don't want to make trouble for the
people I love with this diary, so please just ask yourself
if you actually want to know before you read I guess. I am
not going to lie. I love you, and of course there are
things I want along with that, but I'm cool with being
friends if you are happy.

I just read the last few entries and I just realized how it
seems I really dwelt on the matter a lot. I didn't plan
that - it just sorta happened I guess - but even I find
that weird - thanx for bringing it up to me, but I don't
know why they piled up like that.

looking at the dates it seems that I've written A LOT MORE during
exams this week than I usually do though...




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