Spyderman of this century

the story
2001-12-10 04:30:18 (UTC)

im going to chew on some electrical cords now

ok, yeah, im a lil depressed. i thought everything was
going so well. and it seemed like it. but obviously to
well. because nothing good ever happens to me. in a 2 sec
time span my life went from a fast tracked happy good time,
and screeched to an ugly stop of depression. what is there
to say. i had feelings for this gurl. its the first time i
had felt that way about some one in a VERY long time. since
my last g/f fucked me over royaly. i hadnt been able to
trust gurls up until i met her. i felt so compfortable w/
her. then, i find out shes afraid of me, because of
something my "friends" did. right now i hate these people.
if i could go back in time. i would never hang out w/ these
people, unfortunately though if i did that, i would never
have known this gurl existed. i guess now i just wait, and
see how her feelings play out. even then though, can i ever
just feel the same as i did for her, knowing what i know
now, that shes afraid of what i will do, even though i
would never hurt any one like that. NEVER. i had some one
make me feel like that, and shes kinda of doing that to me
now, i know she doesnt mean to, and it shouldnt hurt like
this. its not like we've been together for some time now. i
mean technically we arent(werent) dating. we held hands,
cuddled a lil. ik, well, i really dont know what else to
say, and i could sit here saying the same shit over and
over, but i know no one wants to hear it. i dont want to
hear it. buh bye




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