badbadkitty

more poems

I got inspired again! Enjoy.

that number....
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I don't love you anymore.
I guess I never did.
You never cared anyway.
It was never any fun.
I'm not over him yet.
I tried, I really tried,
I tried to forget him.
But I've always loved HIM,
you were a temporary replacement,
thats all you ever were.
I can't stay with you.
I never was with you.
My BODY belongs to you,
My HEART belongs to him.
He wants to try again.
I have to leave you
then I might be happy.

**~Pretend~**
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When I'm with you
I want to be with him,
so I close my eyes,
and I pretend.
I feel his hands
gently touching me
caressing away all pain
when I open my eyes
and see you
I know those hands are yours
the dream is shattered
I am in agony again.

When I'm with you
I want to be with him,
so I close my eyes,
and I pretend.
I feel his lips
softly brushing mine
and my heart melts
then I open my eyes
and see you
I know it's you I kissed
my heart jumps
and turns back to stone.

When I'm with you
I want to be with him,
so I close my eyes,
and I pretend.
I feel his breath
on my neck
as we make love
but my eyes open
and see you
I realize I'm in bed with you
I freeze to the bone
and feel like a whore.

**~Confusion~**
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Is it really Love?
Or is it just Longing
held back by Fear?
Confusion.
Spinning thoughts,
Twisting my mind,
Drowning in my desires.
What is right?
Is there even a wrong?
Yes.
Its all wrong,
but so right too.
Can't everyone be happy?
Or am I the only one?
Could I ever be truly happy?
If I hurt you
it hurts me.
How can I be happy if I hurt you?
But I'll never be happy if I don't.
Can we all just go back in time?
Erase the past
fix the future
or erase the future
and dwell on past mistakes.
Why now?
Its so complicated now.
So confusing.
Mind numbing.
Time consuming.
Ming shattering.
Heartwrenching.
Soul breaking.
Life taking.