But of course! Chaos meeh
I miss the breath....
I heard every breath you stuggled to take. I felt the
lonliness that you felt while lying in unfamiliar beds with
those cold sick sheets. I feel the guilt of getting used to
this because I know you never did. So much pain... You
suffered so much and still... I began to ignore the phone
calls when they came every week. Until the last one.... I
saw you. I did. I saw your vulnerability. Why didn't you
move? I waited for you.... WHY DIDN'T YOU TAKE A BREATH? I
WAITED FOR IT... YOU NEVER MOVED... WHY DIDN'T YOU MOVE? I
sat there, touching your frozen flesh and waited for it...
There was no struggle to breathe. Nothing...WHY COULDN'T
YOU JUST MOVE?! JUST ONE LITTLE BREATH... Jesus, please
protect her for me. I'd give my life for her. Jesus, please
keep her for me....Stay here with me, please.... just stay
here. I lost your smell. It's almost gone. Your hands are
gone. Everything I had is gone. Please stay here with
me....I get so caught up in life sometimes... I'm sorry...I
wrote of you in an essay... some stupid essay. I could
never put everything about you on some paper. It hurts so
bad. Just stay with me.... Please stay here with me....