kellykate

Life of a rockstar....NOT!
2001-12-04 02:35:03 (UTC)

Help me

Hello again. It seems to me that I have a very complicated
and troubled life at the moment, I feel nothing happy
except when I'm with, talking to, or thinking about Zack.
It seems so weird to me, and I'm not sure what to do. I
feel so intensly about him, it's not even funny. Tonight,
at the basketball game, he was really in a bad mood cuz him
and his parents got in a fight I guess. I didn't want to
push it because he didn't seem to want to tell me about it.
It was so weird, just because when I was sitting next to
him, every time I looked at him it was just like I could
feel what he was feeling and it was just tearing me up
inside. I wanted to tell him that I understood, and that I
will always be here for him, to help, to love, and to care
for him.

I could be your hero baby, I could kiss away your
pain, I will stand by you forever, you can take my breath
away~Enrique

....That is so how I feel about him right now,
read those lyrics. I would give up my whole life and my
whole world and everything I've worked so hard for if I
could just be with him. I feel like crying just because of
his pain.... And he keeps asking me what it is that I want
for Christmas, and I know exactly what Ima tell him next
time I talk to him~ you baby all I want is you. That is
seriuosly the truth. Just to be with him, and spend time
with him, and love him, that is all I want from him, his
love in return. I don't know what to do with myself, I feel
like I'm becoming obsessive, and I don't like that. I don't
want him to ever get sick of me, that's soo weird for me
because I'm usually worried about how long it's gunna be
til I get sick of them, but all I'm worried about now is
that he will get sick of me because I know I wont get sick
of him....I need some advice! Someone help!