miss chris

All Life's Little Things
2001-12-03 15:38:45 (UTC)

thoughts...

What will christmas bring this year? Love and joy? Peace to
all on earth? Bah.... I'm miserable... I miss Scott...I'm
lost without him, I don't go through a day without thinking
about him, why did I have to fuck this up...and to make
matters worse, I chickened out and didn't call him on
Thursday when I should have...I love Scott more than anyone
in this world... I totally fucked up this time...I mean
really...January has gone down the drain and it's all my
fault...I don't even want January to come now, I hate
January..and I hate my birthday.... :o( I thought that we
would get to finally spend out birthdays together....and I
thought that we would finally be happy with each
other....fianlly...but everything has fallen apart
here...and what was I thinking, getting involved with
Casey?..I mean he's not a bad guy, but I hardly know him at
all and I was just so screwed up with my thoughts... i dunno
what i was thinking..
i'll write more later...


christine




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