Forgotten Boy

permanent damage
2001-12-03 15:13:48 (UTC)

Nother fuckin monday..

'Nother fuckin monday already....not that I mind too much
as Monday's usually the quickest day of the week;the rest
just drag miserably on thier way to friday. The weekend
was,as usual,nothing special. Alot of things that don't
interest or pertain to me directly kept thier usual
careening pace around my solid foundation. A rock in a
sandstorm,that's me. I totally re-thought my arrangement
for "On Green Dolphin Street". It was
too...too...well,crappy. So I worked up a sort of moderate
paced blues instead. First section,up to the repeat,is
pretty much nailed. Have the closing to get to tonight.
Have barely studied my lesson material at all....have no
interest in playing Aloha Oe (oi) at all. I fear that if I
was to learn it that it would be forever ingrained in my
psyche and that I'd never be able to escape as it slowly
worked it's way into every subsequent composition. So no,I
will not play it.
It's the 3rd of December already,the next 4 weeks will be
hell.
Sometimes,like now,I think I wish I had a friend. A true
friend though. Not some fly by night I'll see you when
everything's well kinda bullshit. I mean a F-R-I-E-N-D,you
dig?
Alas,I'm old and making friends doesn't come as easy (not
that it ever was)as it once did. The oppurtunity just isn't
there as frequently. I picture about about 6 people at my
funeral (including the funeral director and the hearse
driver).
for now,
me


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