still single

sick of all the sh*t
2001-12-03 03:03:50 (UTC)

Keeping occupied

So I just got back from going shopping with Christina. Got
a few gifts for my niece and Bill's daughter Blakely. Bill
is my brother's frien that I've known since I was 18 and I
met his daughter at my nephews birthday party a few months
ago..She is 5 yrs old and absolutely adorable. I told him
I'd babysit for free if he ever needed me too...well FridaY
night I wasn't going anywhere so he droppe her off here and
went clubbing with my bro an some other people.Blakely and
I played dress up in my clothes and she was very intrigued
by the fact that I wore wigs...As soon as her an Bill got
to my house she started to play with my hair(wig) Bill's
all"Be careful Blakely..."I laughed and she asked and I tol
her it was a wig an I have really short hair...well of
course she wanted to see it right then and there and I told
her after her daddy left...he knows and he's like"It's not
like I don't know about it" I told him I won't even let my
roommate see my hair(especially since I butchered it to
stop pulling)which is true...I always wear a do-
rag...Anyway I showed her after he left an she asked a
million questions but tol me she liked it(how sweet) an
that I can just grow it out...I explained the best way I
could to a 5 yr ol but she seemed to let it go and was very
excited that I had brown ones an blonde ones so we had to
wear them all night...I let her do my make-up and we took
pictures of ourselves all done up...getting the pictures
developed(dropped them off today). I hope he drops her off
here more often(and he is a hottie...did I mention
that...but we've known each other so long and he's fucked
my best friend soi there goes that idea...

So last night Christina, Silvana, Nelson and I went to "The
Open Bar" in PB...Silvana and I got hammered off Oatmeal
Cookie shots...she puked all niht when we got home but I
crashe out and drove home(in my new Beemer...cornball I
know)at 4am...I wore my brunette wig last night and I
thought I got a lot of attention as a blonde but I think I
goit just as much as a brunette...but guys are afraid to
talk to me...I talked to a nice guy named Nick but he was
just not my type...too many piercings...kinda had this
effeminate quality about him...but very nice.Anyway we
played pool an drank and had a pretty good time except
feeling like shit today...not as bad as I thought though. I
was lying in bed this afternoon thinking this seems to be
the happiest I've ever been...My only concern is filing my
BK...I keep thinking they won't let me or something and
I'll have racked up way more debt. I have an appointment on
Tuesday for a consultation for Liposuction...I figure I may
as well finance thsat too before BK. I'm sick of wishing I
could just wear whatever I want again like when I was a
size 3. Natalie an my mom think it's a ba idea(they also
isapprove of BK an the BMW)but I just feel like it's
something I want to do...maybe it's silly but I'll feel
better about myself..,.I'm not definitely oing it
anyways...I may not even be a good candidate but at least I
can find out...Well the cop customer never called me...oh
well..maybe he's seeing someone. I know he found me
attractive...Guys...go figure...but I actually like beingon
my own in a way..I woke up today an did some gardening
(pulled major weeds...mine and my neighbors)My neighbors
are really nice so I didn't mind...For some reason I get a
little sad on Sunday nights..it's my least favorite part of
the weekend. I get this lonely empty feeling...which
reminds me..when Blakely came over on Friday the first
thing she aske me was where my kids are and she couldn't
understand why I didn't have any...I said (in front of
Bill)"Well I'd like to have kids sometime so if you know
anyone special that you have to introdduce me too, let me
know" I didn't even think before I said it but guys are
commitment phobes so I assume Bill probably thought I was
talking about him...He has been separated from Blakely's
mom since she was 1. I remember meeting her when she was 8
months pregnant...Very nice girl...she must be doing
someething right because her daughter is adorable an so
loving and polite. Anyway I'll probably write more after
the Lipo consultation...maybe before...who knows




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