XxPrincess of DarknessxX

ok so today i wrote that im..

ok so today i wrote that im thinking about anorexia to lose
more weight and i've decided that im gonna try to do
it...partly because i want to be thin..but partly because i
think that it will make me feel better about myself...and i
don't know why........today i finished that book called
stick figure and thats what made me want to become
anorexic....i've been looking at all of those sites and
they really interest me.....but as god as my whitness i
will never become as skinny as the people in those pictures
i saw....i swear to god if i ever do i'll kill
myself...although i know that's not the answer...i looked
at this weight loss diet plan that says if you follow it
exactly you can lose 5 pounds in 1 week...but that's not
enough...i want to lose at least 65 pounds before june
(because of my graudation)(elementry in case your wondering)
ya know most actress's are anorexic...even princess diana
was...
my brother (that's 27) picks me up from school almost every
day and on the way home he always like looks at this girls
that are walking down the street and if their really pretty
he says mmmmmmmhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmm a whole buch of times
and some of his fav lines are i'd like to drive you
home,,,,whats my name,,,,and,,,,ooooooobaby come here...i
swear it totally discusts me..but i don't say anythind i
just till him mingo (that what i call him) i say
mingo,,,your stupid. and then he just smiles at me this
really weried smile...i never tell him how much his life
affects me......but it does and i think that it always
will....i love him but he acts like such a pig...and the
things he says about the girls walking down the street
really hurt me because it makes me feels like im not pretty
or skinny enough to be like those girls...those girls have
everything...looks, bueauty, guys and most of all their
skinny...if i only could be that skinny..i can ony
wish...... :( ........some say that being skinny isn't
everything but i think that it is......theres this girl
named melissa and she is my complete opposite execpt that
we have the same b-day (9-4-87) and our moms have the same
names (gloria)..but anyway im in cheerleading (for the last
time) and so is she...she can do it all back flips frount
flips, walk overs back bends and everything...so me and my
so called "friend" were looking at her do a back bend and
she was saying that she looks anorexic..and i said i would
still want to look like her.....(i hope she caught on-but
she probably didn't she's so stupid)...and i would love to
look like her even if its not as healthy as i
think..............bye................................

oh yeah i forgot to the people that said some stuff about
what i wrote expect email from me...i would like to be
friends...and i want to thank you for your support..........