Ann

My Journey to Motherhood and Life
2001-11-30 22:36:36 (UTC)

I WANT TO EAT AND DRINK

Today I woke up, puked, brushed my teeth and showered. I
drank a big glass of juice, then puked that up. Cranberry
juice burns when it comes out your nose...I didn't know
that. I was pretty depressed over that. How can I keep
hydrated if I can't keep anything down? This is why I
eventually stop eating and drinking and have to get IV
fluids.
My mom says I need to eat for the baby. Thanks for
making me feel guilty. The doctors say the baby is fine. I
WANT TO EAT AND DRINK. MOM, CATCH ON, I DON'T HAVE AN EATING
DISORDER, I AM PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!
Last night I dreamed I drank a huge pitcher of ice water.
Of course in real life it makes me puke. I have dreamed of
buffets and of groves of delicious berries. I wish I could
eat. WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE MORNING SICKNESS SO BADLY!?? I
WANT TO EAT!!!!!!!!!!!
OK, I guess that I am a little upset over this. I guess
I am in the "why me?" state. I just want to be better.I want
to enjoy this pregnancy. I want to be happy. I haven't been
happy for 2 months.If anyone has anything uplifting to say,
I need some inspiration right about now. Ann