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2001-11-30 11:32:48 (UTC)

Rock bottom

K, This has GOT to stop. All week I have been feeling so
close to Kim and then last night- bang! That distance again.
Yeah it was mostly my fault, I admit. I took a temper
tantrum because I didn't want to listen to "Elevation" on
repeat AGAIN so I said I was going to walk to the hockey
game. I made it halfway there before she stopped and picked
me up. I felt really bad for doing it but I couldn't take
that song anymore. After that Kim was really quiet even
though I apologized profusely. So I went to bed after she
did and just cried. I'm dying for a hug but am scared to ask
for one. My heart hurts. On the weekend I actually hit rock
bottom and almost walked in front of a moving car... on
purpose. The only thing that stopped me was seeing my
parents' faces in my head. I can't believe I even thought of
that. I'm so upset about losing Jess that the prospect of
losing Kim too, scares the life out of me. And here I am,
driving her away. I don't know what to do anymore.
Ok, I have a word about some stuck-up, self-centred
Petes- GET OVER YOURSELF AND GET YOUR ASS BACK THERE AND
CONGRATULATE THE GOALIE AFTER YOU SCORE!!! I was apalled
last night. I've mentioned Brad Self before but last night
it was his whole line- twice- so Self, Staal, Wood and
Herneisen (sorry Tiff but he did it too), get over
yourselves! I'm apalled and not very happy. The other
defenseman, I forget which one it was was the only one to go
back those two times. And at the end of the game those guys
didn't go back either. That's all I have to say about that.
George Harrison died yesterday. That's kind of sad. Now
there's only two Beatles left.
Well I should see about waking Kim up because she should
have been up by now and she's not... that's weird.

Current mood: sad
Current music: "Cuts Like a Knife": Bryan Adams